A really long weekend

The phone rang early this morning and Marilyn shaky voice was telling me of her intense pain and of how frightened she was. This was the beginning to one of the hardest days of my life. Most of the day was spent doing what I could to sooth Marilyn's pain simply sitting by her side and praying while softly rubbing her back.

Today fell on the heels of probably one of the more upsetting days I have lived through. After rushing though some needed yard work I sped off to the hospital, upset I wasn't getting there sooner. Thankfully, my guardian angel was keeping a close watch as I drove because I know I wasn't. At one point in the 30 minute cross city traverse I came inches from a nasty accident that would have been my fault. From that point on I made a conscious effort to not end up as another traffic statistic. I am afraid that my Hospital visit wasn't much more successful than my trip over because my frayed emotions took over as I vented my frustrations on the nurses and family.

When a doctor finally arrived late this afternoon we were informed of some quite grave concerns that have now shown up in regular blood testing. In spite of her recent blood transfusion, Marilyn's blood count is still on a downward plunge with no apparent reason. A close watch has been ordered and more tests may be on the way to determine whether or not there is any internal bleeding going on. Marilyn is obviously not fairing well through all of this and needs your prayers more than ever.

The day ended with more phone calls from Marilyn. Although now as well as the intense pain, Marilyn is suffering form extreme confusion. I am just praying that she won't carry through her latest threat of calling 911 to stop the nurses from force feeding her pills. I need some rest - it has been a hard day.

Bryon